You may have noticed that I’ve been a bit absent from the blogging world recently. I was really struggling to get inspired; I couldn’t think of anything to write and I felt a bit demotivated by the whole thing. Instead of forcing myself to produce content just for the sake of it, I decided to take a step back until I fell back in love with it. My anxiety has really caused me to struggle with getting motivated. I’m the kind of person who thrives under pressure and with not being able to work or having anything that I HAVE to do, I’ve been finding it really hard to motivate myself. Even getting out of bed can become a struggle because I just feel like there’s nothing to get up for.
Last week I decided that I needed to sort myself out a bit. It’s so frustrating that my anxiety is preventing me from working, but I thought that if I could get back into a better routine and get my motivation to do things that I enjoy (such as blogging!) then my quality of life would be a lot better and I would be giving myself the best chance of recovery.
My sister suggested that we have 7 days of no phones (!). This would mean putting my phone on airplane mode meaning I would have no access to Twitter, Facebook, Instagram, Snapchat, YouTube texts or calls. We were allowed to use our laptops to check e-mails as we were both expecting important e-mails that we needed to be able to access and we were still allowed to use our phones for alarms and for listening to downloaded music, but that was it. I was really unsure at first, I nearly always have my phone in my hand and I’m constantly scrolling through Twitter and Instagram. My mum offered to buy us both a little treat if we managed it, so always one to take on a challenge (plus being bribed haha) I decided to give it a go. Last Monday at 7pm I switched my phone on to airplane mode and only took it off last night.
It’s been liberating! Before I would always have my phone nearby and would feel twitchy if it was in another room. I would be scrolling through Twitter or Instagram while watching TV or a film meaning that I wasn’t concentrating properly. I’ve been on and off my phone while talking to friends or family. I didn’t realise how much I did all these things until I stopped doing them last week. Half the time I didn’t even know where my phone was, or it would stay tossed in my bag where I had put it first thing in the morning. I could watch the TV (I have just started watching The Crown on Netflix and am LOVING it) without constantly having to rewind it or ask what someone had just said because I’d been looking at my phone. When we went out for coffee or dinner as a family we would just be talking without distraction. When we’ve been on the beach I’ve been enjoying reading instead of meaning to read and ending up scrolling through Instagram. It has been easier because we’ve been on holiday so I haven’t had any plans with friends that not having a phone would make difficult, but it has still been hard not being able to go on the apps that I usually would scroll through or send my friends a quick message. But it’s taught me a really valuable lesson. I was addicted to my phone and now I can see how much I was using it and how damaging it was. I now don’t need to know where my phone is ALL the time; if someone messages me it can wait! I will still enjoy using Twitter and Instagram but I won’t be constantly scrolling through them while doing other activities.
I would 100% recommend having a phone detox, even if it’s just for 24 hours. Having this time away from the internet, as well as getting myself into a better night and morning routine and exercising more (we’ve been staying in a cottage that has shared access to a gym and swimming pool so I’ve been making the most of it!) have given me a new lease of life and a fresh wave of motivation. Obviously life is still very difficult for me due to my anxiety, but I now feel motivated to keep myself in a good routine and to do things that I enjoy such as blogging and doing an online course in make-up (that I started in January woops, have not been good at getting myself to do it!)
Have you ever had a phone detox? Do you think you would try one? I’d love to know what you think in the comments!
Lots of love